down right ugly.

Well I had a bad day, a really bad day that I, Sarah Pho started and did not end very well. This morning I had a really WW3 argument with my grandma, yes I was the mean granddaughter that went on rage and may have went as far to as hurting my grandma's feelings (yes I did). Then I left the house early to go to school for a run, and through the run emotions and thoughts just kept rewinding in my head from that morning and I had too big of an ego to even consider apologizing when I went home.

After the sweat and cooling off I started to feel bad and I know I didn't respect my elder or show the love of a Christian in me (my granny is not a christian) but I just hate how some elders never listen-especially to young people, always stick with methods of the past, and are just ugg!? I don't know, then I thought, I probably be in my grandma's shoes one day... then again I was like No I won't, I'm not going to have kids then I won't have grandchildren.

During my run I really wanted to get out of Edmonton and move to Vancouver for school if I could or just get out of the city because I always feel like I buttheads with so and so in my family so often. Of course I admit, its my fault too and I got to take responsiblity of what I say and HOW I say it( this quote came into my head "what you say is just as important as how you say it"). But its so hard and I definitly got driven by my emotions and attitude today. I feel so bratty; you can't choose your family and your family can't choose you, God made if fair, and we have to learn to live with one another and not only live but LOVE.

I need anger/emotional/attitude managment at home and contemplating of moving away gave me more anguish feelings and I realize wanting to leave deadmonton would just be running away from the problem.

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