UP UP AND AWAY!

I'M SO HYPED. like drugged at the moment! UP! So my friend mentioned if I want to go watch UP and I was like Urban Promise??!?! But UP is actually a new pixar animated 3D film and I want to go watch it now, first because of the pun with UP as in Urban Promise.. well acroynm and second its cool!

So today I got an email from Urban Promise, I'll be situated at Camp Peace and I'll be baking with the kids and other responsibilities of course! I really really anticpate flying over borders and having a memorable experience.

Happy birthday NEAC! 25 years old! 25 memorable & meaningful years!

One Month.

I have graduated, yes graduated with a "diploma" that says my grad theme and grad theme drawing it. Fraud! But none the less it was a great weekend and I experienced God more in depth then ever. He forced me to call on his name for help, and cry to him during a time I was suppose to be overjoyed and making it the most memorable I could. Well it was memorable alright I will never forget what happened this weekend, that little accident on the way to grad and the aftermath of it and the bigger picture I saw revealed to me. God's plan is truly beyond human circumstances, beyond the present, beyond what we can acknowledge, and we only get it when it unfolds according to God's purpose. All I can say is, Thank you God. There were parts of Grad I would redo if I could, like bringing my camera to commensment or keeping my gown on longer so I could've taken a full gown pic with my parents but it has all ended now, and I learnt to not live in the past, but to "Live each day as I were to die tommorw and Learn as if I was to live Forever", significantly my grad quote came into play.

Today is May 26, exactly one month until Urban Promise. One month left until all my diplomas will have been finished and dealth with! I can't wait. Foreshadowing June 26 is overwhelming me!! I really need to prepare myself spiritually and read those emailed manuals. I'm so grateful from learning to draw close to God, it is in your lowest of lows that God draws you near because when your happy go lucky everything is the best it can be and one doesn't feel obliged to ask God for help, or yearn to be closer with him on a personal level. I pray that we all learn to achieve a heart to heart relationship with God, because its a never ending task and God will get out of his way to make this known to you.

GRAD 2009

Commensment in like 3 hours! All that getting ready, studying and preparing and wow I can't believe it!! I wasn't that hype last week or this past long weekend, but WOW. I am now!
I'm like shaking already and I'm only at home sitting infront of this computer, just imagine me AT Shaw in HEELS with the gown & tassel hat and A bazillion people watching!

I've just been thanking God so much today and yesterday and I kept thinking back to gr.6 grad or gr.9 grad.. and now HIGHSCHOOL grad!!! voom voom voooooom diplomas aren't even on my mind cuz its party time! haha not really, our Grad coordinator/teacher was like 'remember your parents are watching, don't be a fool and drink before commensment, oh what stupid acts some people would do but I'm excited and I know I'll remember today and everything about tonight for a long long time!

Thanks God and Congrats to all O9 Graduates=D

May Day.

SCHOOL IS SO BORING. I want to quit BUT I know there's just two more months left and these 2 months will count alot since the teachers all seem to be wrapping up the week with tests. TWO MORE MONTHS AND IM DUN DUNNN DONE. My school has nicknamed the month of May 'May Disease' due to so many vacant desks.

Then there's Grad. I understand why people say its overated, some people do treat it as their biggest event of their lives; getting their hair done, makeup done and even nail appointments! Plus don't forget to tack on the $$$ they paid for their dress,shoes, accessories, etc. Like woman, I believe your wedding day should be your BIGGEST day but don't get me wrong, it is fun to celebrate 13 years of education and dress up and enjoy the time with your friends and family but wow the cost of Grad some people pay for does fly high! 11 more days.

SO I just want to get out of school, I'm actually more excited for my church's 25th anniversary, oh how fast time goes by, I can still remember the 20th one, and soon UP! so close yet so far so happy yet so scared so adrenaline shaking yet so don't know what to expect kind of mode.

Sadly I sense my group of friends at school seem to be broken in so many different ways. I don't even know how to explain it or where to start, its so complex and all I can do is pray for each of us yet it feels like we are drifting and it sucks, really does suck. Sometimes I feel so conserved from them like I can't even open up -its like an enterwined mess right now and I can only hope that God will detangle this messy friendship.
But to balance things out, God has made me feel so happy at church, its such a happy filling place and I love to be with my sic's & bic's (sisters/brothers in christ) and driming/spending time with them. I have a motto, Get SIC; Go BIG! (BIG= brothers in God.. kind of awkward but yeah I guess it could be BIC, and hence we'll be promoting the pen company hehe)

Church is home and home is home sweet home.

Running away.

I was running away from a crime I did. I had purposely repeated it for the third time and had not learnt a thing. I was constantly on a getaway and living through a hidden life when a cousellor stopped me in my steps and told me I had to stop living the fake life I was in and admit to reality and face my fears. I finally relinquished my self and released the truth. I told the cops I purposely killed someone due to my self-centered & evil wants. I teared and spilled every piece of truth I could've spoken and I cried and found myself, half my face propped against my pillow, arm stressed from sleeping on it.

That dream hit me hard, when you cry in dreams- you cry in reality, is God trying smack me in the face and tell me something? None the less I thought it was a pretty unique dream, and the 'cousellor' happened to be Phil. haha, now that's funny. Maybe I do need to let go of a lot of things that I can't help but hold on to.

Well today wasn't the greatest day, I found out one of my friend might possibly move to Texas, yes the "Hill Billy" Land where people have southwestern accents and have the highest rate of obesity. All jokes aside, I didn't think it hit me that hard but it did. First off I didn't consider her the closest of friends but I come to realize friendships may hit you deeper then it may appear on the surface. Secondly I also realized that a bunch of the people in my group shall I say is off to different places this summer either moving, travelling, interning and highschool is definitly coming to an end. I didn't think I miss it and I still don't cause school isn't my favorite place but I can foreshadow that the last day of school might me a depressing one for me.

I wonder what God has instore for me a few years from now. I really want to know. I love to experience and explore a lot of things but at the same time I want to do it with and for Him.


When you worship God first the rest will fall into place...