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WEEeeek.

Wow, I haven't written in exactly 13 days, and I do feel missing writing in blogs, its like a way to just spill everything, and its so much easier to write rather then talk it out because I'm always scared who so and so will think or judge or you know. I guess sometimes I do over think things or over think how people will over think things if that makes sense. But I know I shouldn't, it comes down to how God thinks, but its easy to say but also easy to stray away from it.

So I guess I'm back in the school mode of things, school has BEEN STRESSING. I find myself comparing a lot lately, especially marks. Like, especially going to MAC, an academic school, everyone is school focus, some to the max. and sometimes if I know my friends did better then me on a test or even an assignment, I tend to not tell them my mark, for no stupider reason then fear; scared of what they will think. There's so much pressure sometimes and I don't know how to relieve myself of it .

I think my school friends have changed me a lot, I mean who you hang out with is who you become right? Its hard to stand out when peer pressure is luring around the corner, it oddity to talk about a 'non-secular' top, and most of all, its sad to not be able to bring up church related topics or God. Today it really hit me, I couldn't find my friends at lunch, the usual 6 of us girls, squishing into this square teeny tiny cubbie on the floor and spending our lunch break there ( a group were having a bake sale infront of that cubbie) , so I was roaming the hallways, up and down and didn't catch a glimpse of them. Then I found 2 of them gossiping about another girl in our group, and I found myself laughing it off with them and partcipating. Its not the first time, and I know it wont be the last time I do this, but at that moment God flashed into my mind and I thought of WWJD ( What would Jesus do?) or more importantly WHAT WOULD JESUS THINK.

I really didn't feel comfortable and I really do wish that I went to a school where my church friends would be, and just be able to relieve myself of these 5 girls at times.

Anyhow, enough of the depressing side, so I figure I do better in English or Social rather then Math or the Sciences, or what I mean is, I'm better at writing essays then calculating or straight memorizing. I got my 2 written midterms back this week, and the result was way better then I thought, way higher then Math or Sciences. So I guess writing is one of my hobbies, I enjoy writing and I'm glad I started this blog and get to spill my heart out.

Another thing is, my sony camera I mentioned last blog, the warranty still works! I'm really gratful, before I called them, I had made up my mind I would have to go pick it up and give it to a friend to fix, but surprize, God is full of surprizes and you can't jump to conclusions. I can't wait to get it back!

Well I'm looking forward to this cherry on top of my weekend-Family Day.

&& Happy Birthday to my younger brothers!!