Initiation of Camp PEACE. P-E-A-C-E!

Two days down. But whose counting.
So yesterday was the first day and Woah was it hectic and speedy. Everything was speedy, which made me have to be speedy. So my role is the baking leader and I teach the kids not only to bake but about cleanliness and safety too. They listened pretty well for a short span of attention they gave me and on the menu was Chocolate Chip Cookies. mmmm.
But not so long after I had to get to Quest club, a part of the day where you spend some time with fewer kids. The older girls I had didn't really like what I wanted to do at first, but none the less it ended with some feisty "I-B tackle" with the boys' group. Then a superb rush back to the kitchen for a second round of baking class, but this time the kitchen was filled with hotdogs because it was the first round of lunch (Camp Peace has 2 lunches, due to 106 kids in it) . So it was really crazy and lots of clean up, clean up, and more clean up afterwards.

Then the day just seem to end after four carts of grocery shopping and $600 spent.

Today was better, it was pretty steady too since we had our first ever trip day, and my first ever out of Vancouver so off to Surrey!
Destination : Al Rocha "Christians for Conservation" (basically a super environmental place)
The kids went through 5 stations from learning about compost and animals to pond creatures and bird watching. The grossest was finding a big fat red worm in the dirt they got. I got so squirmy and the kids were like WICKED. 8-) I'm a wimp.

Although the kids tested my patience at times when they were disobedient, I made it through and the cuteness of these kids made up for the odds & ends. Thank the Lord.

FUNKY CHICKEN.

Quenched.

Well yesterday was a burnt out day. I was tired from friday night trying to cram in some social information for my social diploma thursday night from 10:30 pm to 12:30am!! Didn't help too much, so once again never study when your tired, it doesn't work, but I did it anyways. The last few questions of my diploma I ended up speeding through cause I really wanted to get out of the gym and highschool. I missed my friends, I'm such a hypocrite.

So after the 'last lunch' with my parents (we had dimsum @ Jumbo) and my craving for shaved ice since bake&cake opened (really nice place-check it out) to the airport we go! 4:05pm was my flight and I arrived the airport at 1:30, a little too early for my liking since Edmonton's airport is really dull and boring. Anyhow I guess it was sad seeing my parents be a tad sad seeing me for the last time until two months later, but it was pretty amazing to be alone in the airport.

So take off! I thought the plane would like blew up any minute like in the movies since it was tilting and stuff, but nahh I just always think things from drama. Then at 4:38 I saw the rockies!!! like wow. how fast must the plane be going that in like 20 minutes or less you see a place which takes usually 3 hours to get to?!?! pretty sweet. then arrival, descending rushed my adrenaline a bit, but since we were to put our stuff away, couldn't journal about it at THAT moment. But yes safe trip none the less; I like flying.

Arrived at UP house, well I didn't judge it, I thought it was pretty decent compared to other's peoples' opinions about it, and that night felt like a slumber party with people I just met, but a slumber party that will last the next 6+ weeks! But I was really burnt out, and it was unbelievable having finish a diploma only mere hours ago to coming to Vancouver which was really teleportation. Edmonton was 19C, Vancouver was 19C; Edmonton was 4 ish when I left, and Vancouer was only 4:45.

Right away we met all the other interns, some of the camp directors and board of directors. So many names and information, it was difficult to absorb it all. But we kicked it off with a BBQ and a "consequence" game.

Today is Saturday and its pretty chilled so far, had orientation this morning with Andrea (a very hip & cool lady that brought us for coffee on Commercial drive) and now me and Adoria are chilling in the house alone, soon to hang out with Pjoe if it works out!

God's grace is amazing, and all the encouragement we got brought us peace, joy and hope.

>>FFWD 24 hours.

In 24 hours I'm going to be off ; in 24 hours I'll already arrive Vancouver. Cool how time zones work eh, you leave at 4pm, you arrive at 4pm. Its like teleportation, haven't miss a second of your life. Were all super heros now. But down to Earth, WOW IN 24 HOURS I AM DONE DONE DUNNNNNN.

-done highschool
-done diplomas
-done grade school for the rest of my life
-off to a place without family for the first time
-following God's amazing guidance in a time I'll probably be filled with doubt & all other mumble jumble emotions blended together in a mixer.

I can't believe it but then I can. But I am NOT done. Its so true "the more you know, the more you know you don't know" I know this graduating summer God is going to do amazing things in me, maybe change me, maybe give me a whole new transformation- fresh & unexpected. I've followed a recommendation and started writing in a journal as well. I hope to document every change I go through, every struggle, every time of my life, every lowest of lows- just everything.

Tomorrow on the plane I think I'm going to go nuts. The whole plane may even think I have swine, and think the newest symptom is going psycho xP... I've like sealed in my potential of being excited during these two weeks of diploma madness. But tommorow it shall be released like the joy a little girl gets when she receives her favorite gift. In a way I might just play the role of that little girl all over again.


Embrace IT!

Throwdown the Countdown.

10 days until I leave, I'm counting down alright, such excitement but yet still unbeliveable. I should start packing this coming weekend! I'm really hyped and I don't feel stress at all now, I think my prayer requests are working, their dismantling my accumulated stress from before!

I've also finished two diplomas(essays) and I felt really good, either I feel good because I did think I did good or maybe it was just the joy of finishing two written diplomas, too bad there's still 6 more parts to go : 2 bio; 2 chem; 1 english ; & 1 social.

But back to the topic of leaving, I think I'm going to miss my school and church friends so much. Two nights ago I was having a late night call ( like 10pm +) with one of my sic buddies, we ended up crying over the phone togther and I felt our friendship just gets deeper with each tear-either tear of joy or tear of saddness together. But I really wish I could stay in Edmonton longer to help her out with her problems and difficulties. I yearn to see her grow even more and deepen her relationship with Christ since its been a rollercoaster ride for her. I hope and pray that the promise I made her that night will be come surreal so that she may be at ease. I pray that the promise she made me will become reality as well.
GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH & WISDOM!

You know the feeling when you make a promise and you really really want to do it in that moment, but after the emotions and the mood you were in fades, you feel like you can't do it no more or you doubt yourself. This is what I'm feeling, I feel so feeble and not up to this role I said yes to- but I know its all anxiety and doubts, and God will pull me through. AMEN.

Unbelievable.

School just ended like 4 hours ago. I can't believe it, I feel like a two face or else a hypocrite. Before I would dread going to school and having to bus half hour + each day to and from Mac, so that makes it a little over an hour each day (especially leaving home from spare and having to take the 150 and crossing that killer traffic circle!!) And now it was such a sad day, everyone was taking pictures, sharing food with teachers and students, farewells everywhere and grad pranks too. I felt like I wanted to stay longer and it really is the people that make highschool worth it. I felt it wasn't until these last few months that I actually gotten to know some people and wish I had became friends with them earlier!. I wish I had more timeto get to know them inside out but I know if I put the effort in, these newly made and current friends of mine will be maintained throughout uni and maybe a lifetime.

Its hardwork and the homework makes it dull and boring but it builds you for the long run. Diplomas are coming up and thanks to a little someone and their postivitity I feel a little at ease- doing a little destressing lately haha. Yes, I haven't studied much and I've actually been enjoying time with myself doing things I want to do but I'm sure I'll get around to it and try to do my very best!

Today is June 12, that means two more weeks until my internship, I feel like not wanting to leave but at the same time I wish I could just skim over those diplomas and fly fly fly! My final grade school year is coming to an end, all I can say is unbelievable- thirteen years has flown by and I still remember when I was in elementary thinking how it would take me FOREVER to finish highschool and how BIG the teens were and how AMAZING it be just to get there.


There is a time for everything- a time to cry and a time to smile; a time to celebrate and a time to remorse; a time to give and a time to receive.

Blown threw the top.

Man I feel so stresss, like I've hit the maximum threshold level of stress. In calm I learnt stress can be good things not neccesarily many bad negative things put together causing you to feel tired or tense. But my stress is literally many things combined. School diplomas. Church Activities. Upcoming Events. Doctor Appointments. To Do lists. Preparation before I leave Edmonton. etc.

I really need to vent, it seems like this week so many things have been getting tangled up in my life either scheduling or things I've been looking forward to just ends up getting backfired on me. Don't get me wrong, I don't blame anyone or regret although I find myself wishing I started studying earlier or choosing a semsester school so I wouldn't have to deal with so many diplomas. But God has his plans and he sees the bigger picture while were complaining about the then and now. I really feel unready for diplomas I feel like its going to be the end of the world if I do bad-but its not. I really hope I can let go of some things but at times its so hard. So hard.

16 more days until I leave and every week I have a mini to do list either it be paying my deposit fee for U of A or read a novel for English Dip.- I want to get out of this mode. But I know I got to stay motivated, because having only 16 days left is why I got to work hard so by the end of it I can leave school and the city knowing I've done the best and just got to let God do the rest.


God please keep steering me, I've only started moving.

Tune into June.

Time is zooming by. voom voom voooom. My May Day month has flown by and my exciting events each weekend are slowing down but not really because Urban Promise is right around the corner! Yes I know I have like a two day Calculus final starting Monday and another four diplomas coming up which is worth 50% of my mark which I think is ridiculous! What if you did really good the whole year and you just happen to bomb these 'diplomas' oh snap- your mark would go down by like half! Well I guess all we can do is try our best, just like this phrase says "God can't steer a ship that ain't moving," so lets all get off our lazy butts (literally and figuratively) and MOVE.

I'm really excited about my summer but my parents have started getting naggy about swine flu and quarantine. To be honest, I don't feel it to be that bad, well I obviously didn't get the flu but I think SARS was like ten times worse 6 years ago, but a pandemic is a pandemic and the WHO are head over heels over this issue. Maybe I should wear a face mask on the plane-I wonder how people would comment on that. But sometimes I still don't believe I'll be flying on my own, spending more then 6 weeks in Vancouver with no strings attach-no family at all, no mom or dad on my back; I'm free like a bird with weighless wings.

Speaking of which tonight's fellowship was awesome! Sumo wrestling, dodgeball, sumo surfing, a message to the point about Head Heart & Hands; to learn, be, and SHOW Christ likeness to others- a trait we can all brush up on day to day. God is great just like how that song goes....


"My God is so Great so Strong and so Mighty there's nothing my God cannot do-FOR YOU!"