10 days until I leave, I'm counting down alright, such excitement but yet still unbeliveable. I should start packing this coming weekend! I'm really hyped and I don't feel stress at all now, I think my prayer requests are working, their dismantling my accumulated stress from before!
I've also finished two diplomas(essays) and I felt really good, either I feel good because I did think I did good or maybe it was just the joy of finishing two written diplomas, too bad there's still 6 more parts to go : 2 bio; 2 chem; 1 english ; & 1 social.
But back to the topic of leaving, I think I'm going to miss my school and church friends so much. Two nights ago I was having a late night call ( like 10pm +) with one of my sic buddies, we ended up crying over the phone togther and I felt our friendship just gets deeper with each tear-either tear of joy or tear of saddness together. But I really wish I could stay in Edmonton longer to help her out with her problems and difficulties. I yearn to see her grow even more and deepen her relationship with Christ since its been a rollercoaster ride for her. I hope and pray that the promise I made her that night will be come surreal so that she may be at ease. I pray that the promise she made me will become reality as well.
GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH & WISDOM!
You know the feeling when you make a promise and you really really want to do it in that moment, but after the emotions and the mood you were in fades, you feel like you can't do it no more or you doubt yourself. This is what I'm feeling, I feel so feeble and not up to this role I said yes to- but I know its all anxiety and doubts, and God will pull me through. AMEN.
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