Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Blown threw the top.

Man I feel so stresss, like I've hit the maximum threshold level of stress. In calm I learnt stress can be good things not neccesarily many bad negative things put together causing you to feel tired or tense. But my stress is literally many things combined. School diplomas. Church Activities. Upcoming Events. Doctor Appointments. To Do lists. Preparation before I leave Edmonton. etc.

I really need to vent, it seems like this week so many things have been getting tangled up in my life either scheduling or things I've been looking forward to just ends up getting backfired on me. Don't get me wrong, I don't blame anyone or regret although I find myself wishing I started studying earlier or choosing a semsester school so I wouldn't have to deal with so many diplomas. But God has his plans and he sees the bigger picture while were complaining about the then and now. I really feel unready for diplomas I feel like its going to be the end of the world if I do bad-but its not. I really hope I can let go of some things but at times its so hard. So hard.

16 more days until I leave and every week I have a mini to do list either it be paying my deposit fee for U of A or read a novel for English Dip.- I want to get out of this mode. But I know I got to stay motivated, because having only 16 days left is why I got to work hard so by the end of it I can leave school and the city knowing I've done the best and just got to let God do the rest.


God please keep steering me, I've only started moving.

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