God is my hero.
I can be a broken record and elaborate on how wonderful He is in all the little things he does for me and makes me feel. I know that in my weaknesses, he is strong. He is able to conquer all things, and make all things possible. I may not be aware of this all the time, and I may even stray away and forget that its not how I should be pleased by God, but the other way around.
My last post was miserably in the dumps. Yes, I have lots to do, yes, sometimes I feel like I'm losing it, and yes, sometimes I say yes to things too often to too many commitments when a no is needed. All those feelings still reside in me, but I am more at ease, have found a new joy, and am looking forward to all things festive. Its utterly amazing how God can allow me to feel this way even knowing I only have eight days of school left and a load of sewing, drawings, writing, and presenting to do!
There's no point wasting time worrying, when I can get down to business and rev my productivity engine instead.
I think my new found quote has helped to remind me of what's worth striving for:
"What worries You, masters You." - Haddon W. Robinson
Well, best of luck to all you students out there. Just imagine the happiness you will feel after your very last exam.
Make it a strong ending.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Occupy This
I'm Exhausted.
I thought this term would be pretty straight forward for me, but no its not. I anticipated busyness and stress this month, as with every third month of my semester, but I'm doubting to the point that I'm not having faith in God. I tell people, 'God will never give you more than you can handle,' yet, I'm not believing in it, I'm such a hypocrite. I'm not having faith and I'm trying to. There's so much on my plate and I feel I may have to just let some items slip by and hope for the best, but I really don't want to do that! Though, I may have unintentionally done so already...
Last weekend I was bombarded with the work from my sewing class. If I was to spend the amount of hours sewing as with studying, I would probably be an A, if not A+ student with a at least 3.9GPA (I'm bluffing I know, but it sure feels like it). 35 hours and counting, my oh my, I'm really taking a second look into my future of being hunch back and having a bifocal prescription of +1000. Speaking of which, I've been thinking about my future a lot lately, and it just adds another dish to my already bloated life. Therefore, due to so much focus towards this one class, it totally left my mind that I had a bunch of Korean homework due for Monday and a vocabulary test on Wednesday which I ended up guessing on... and probably flunking, and I tend to use my agenda wisely and write every single thing I need to accomplish until there is no more space for me to write in it. I believe I have reached my memory capacity, mind you, my dear and faithful memory hasn't been as faithful to me these days. I find myself being so forgetful, is 20 the new 40? AHHHHHHHH!
The more I think about what needs to be done until the very last day of this term, the more I just want to cry, sulk, and complain. I remind myself to focus on God and rely on him, but it may just be one of those phases as a student. I'm not lost, just tired, really tired, and out of fuel. I want these days to slow down, I want rest, I want to watch TV, I want to splurge, I want peace, I want clarity, I want to fellowship (I know your giving me the 'tsk tsk' look, I've kept track, I haven't been to fellowship for 4 weeks now, but it sure bothers me more than ever). I have constantly been occupied with something, physically, socially, or mentally, and man, can someone just crash into me please so that my outer and inner vehicle will just stop? Either that, or I will break down on my own.
This is my rant of the night, Thankyou for listening, and all I want for Christmas is sleep and prayer.
God, I really hope I will grow from this and acknowledge what I do not know, see what I cannot see, and brave, what I don't want to bear.
I thought this term would be pretty straight forward for me, but no its not. I anticipated busyness and stress this month, as with every third month of my semester, but I'm doubting to the point that I'm not having faith in God. I tell people, 'God will never give you more than you can handle,' yet, I'm not believing in it, I'm such a hypocrite. I'm not having faith and I'm trying to. There's so much on my plate and I feel I may have to just let some items slip by and hope for the best, but I really don't want to do that! Though, I may have unintentionally done so already...
Last weekend I was bombarded with the work from my sewing class. If I was to spend the amount of hours sewing as with studying, I would probably be an A, if not A+ student with a at least 3.9GPA (I'm bluffing I know, but it sure feels like it). 35 hours and counting, my oh my, I'm really taking a second look into my future of being hunch back and having a bifocal prescription of +1000. Speaking of which, I've been thinking about my future a lot lately, and it just adds another dish to my already bloated life. Therefore, due to so much focus towards this one class, it totally left my mind that I had a bunch of Korean homework due for Monday and a vocabulary test on Wednesday which I ended up guessing on... and probably flunking, and I tend to use my agenda wisely and write every single thing I need to accomplish until there is no more space for me to write in it. I believe I have reached my memory capacity, mind you, my dear and faithful memory hasn't been as faithful to me these days. I find myself being so forgetful, is 20 the new 40? AHHHHHHHH!
The more I think about what needs to be done until the very last day of this term, the more I just want to cry, sulk, and complain. I remind myself to focus on God and rely on him, but it may just be one of those phases as a student. I'm not lost, just tired, really tired, and out of fuel. I want these days to slow down, I want rest, I want to watch TV, I want to splurge, I want peace, I want clarity, I want to fellowship (I know your giving me the 'tsk tsk' look, I've kept track, I haven't been to fellowship for 4 weeks now, but it sure bothers me more than ever). I have constantly been occupied with something, physically, socially, or mentally, and man, can someone just crash into me please so that my outer and inner vehicle will just stop? Either that, or I will break down on my own.
This is my rant of the night, Thankyou for listening, and all I want for Christmas is sleep and prayer.
God, I really hope I will grow from this and acknowledge what I do not know, see what I cannot see, and brave, what I don't want to bear.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Relief
Hello November??
Say What?
ALREADY?!
I can't believe this term is more than half way; time is just ticking and tocking away. It seems like the more things I have to do, the less I notice how the duration of the school term is shortening day by day, week by week, and there goes a month.
Where is daylight saving by the way? I really can't take another pitch black 6am morning call for class no more.
I was in exasperated pain this morning, and it had to do with the washroom, so to save you from another disturbing post like this one (but quite the opposite), I'll just leave it for you to interpret.
Thus, I had planted a seed in my head that it was going to be a bad day. Though, I did managed to do a quick 180 with my mindset and was determined to make it a good one and not let any negative aspects get to me since I tend to dwell on one negative factor for a while.
As usual, today I went to class, went for a run, went to another class, went to my sewing lab, got lots accomplished, and there goes the same routine as any other day. Nothing special happened, nothing bothered me, nothing stood out, my education filled day finished its course and I was heading home.
I took out my phone to check the time and I realized I had missed a call and I had one voice message. So I called my voice mail and I listened. The more I listened to this unknown voice, the more interested I became in what he had to say, and by the end of the message, I was completely overjoyed. I called the person back to confirm everything and there I was sitting happily as I waited for the bus driver to drive me home, sitting and smiling over a scholarship I am now the recipient of.
I couldn't help but say a quick prayer and realize that its been a while I prayed in public. All the while, I felt it was an encouragement from God, relieving all my worries, doubts, and circumstances for the future. When my to do list is a mile long, I forget that He should be at the top with me to endure through everything, not at the bottom where "I'll get to Him when everything is done" mentality. I feel so blessed that God never ceases to provide and surprise me in the most unexpected ways.
And when He's not on my mind, I'm always on His.
P.S.
Dear Fruits & Veggies:
Sorry for neglecting you, but thanks for reminding me of your providence of fiber in helping my body digest food and allow for easy waste relief. I have learned my lesson the hard way to always listen and eat my daily allotment of fruits and veges. (I think You should too!)
Say What?
ALREADY?!
I can't believe this term is more than half way; time is just ticking and tocking away. It seems like the more things I have to do, the less I notice how the duration of the school term is shortening day by day, week by week, and there goes a month.
Where is daylight saving by the way? I really can't take another pitch black 6am morning call for class no more.
I was in exasperated pain this morning, and it had to do with the washroom, so to save you from another disturbing post like this one (but quite the opposite), I'll just leave it for you to interpret.
Thus, I had planted a seed in my head that it was going to be a bad day. Though, I did managed to do a quick 180 with my mindset and was determined to make it a good one and not let any negative aspects get to me since I tend to dwell on one negative factor for a while.
As usual, today I went to class, went for a run, went to another class, went to my sewing lab, got lots accomplished, and there goes the same routine as any other day. Nothing special happened, nothing bothered me, nothing stood out, my education filled day finished its course and I was heading home.
I took out my phone to check the time and I realized I had missed a call and I had one voice message. So I called my voice mail and I listened. The more I listened to this unknown voice, the more interested I became in what he had to say, and by the end of the message, I was completely overjoyed. I called the person back to confirm everything and there I was sitting happily as I waited for the bus driver to drive me home, sitting and smiling over a scholarship I am now the recipient of.
I couldn't help but say a quick prayer and realize that its been a while I prayed in public. All the while, I felt it was an encouragement from God, relieving all my worries, doubts, and circumstances for the future. When my to do list is a mile long, I forget that He should be at the top with me to endure through everything, not at the bottom where "I'll get to Him when everything is done" mentality. I feel so blessed that God never ceases to provide and surprise me in the most unexpected ways.
And when He's not on my mind, I'm always on His.
P.S.
Dear Fruits & Veggies:
Sorry for neglecting you, but thanks for reminding me of your providence of fiber in helping my body digest food and allow for easy waste relief. I have learned my lesson the hard way to always listen and eat my daily allotment of fruits and veges. (I think You should too!)
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