If you haven't known already, school is really bringing me down. I find myself trying to PICK up after myself everyday; after a day of sitting in front of the computer writing and researching or hitting my head and soul inside a book. I feel taken over by school, which I despised with a passion. I realize shopping does do its trick for me, I find myself treating myself to something each week and I'm thankful I'm employed but at the same time; the time I spend on a work shift could been invested into school work-although I feel that would be a bad investment since you don't get paid, and you may not even end up getting a good grade. Funny how things work eh? But education is suppose to be for the better in the long run so anyhow...
Today I had work after three weeks of no working (since I took off two weekends for midterms) but I really didn't want to go to work. I thought I was stupid for taking two weekends off in a row; I should have planned better and left one of those "off" days for this weekend or the next knowing that I have four papers all due beginning of November... ugh. So from mid September to early October, Shoppers had a donation drive for breast cancer and we decided to make a competition out of it. The top three cashiers that got the most donations from customers (by asking them to donate a $1, $5, or $50 (although the most obvious and popular donation was of course one dollar)) would win a prize. To my bewilderment, I got to work finding out I had won fourth place! Me? Having only one shift a week? Not only was I shocked, but my co-workers were too! They said even though I only had a few shifts during this drive, other cashiers didn't bother to ask for donations too much. At first it was only going to be prizes for the top three, but they had an extra one, and that ended up in my hands. :) This proves to me that effort does pay off and I hope it works the same way for school.
Secondly, as I have mentioned about my "pick-me-up" aka "shopping therapy" in my ocean-bottom times; I had my eye on this item at Sears for a while now; and I would check on it before my shift every time. Since its been a month or so, I expected the item to be gone or be on sale by now- the LATTER assumption was correct and of course I purchased it. :)
To top it off, I spent my shift training a new girl, so I didn't have to deal with customers too much. Some of them were really grouchy purchasing a large amount of candy for Halloween or the fact that there was long lineups. Why bother if you don't feel good about what your doing? Just be the Grinch tomorrow or Grumpy then.
God is good, I thank Him for all these little surprises that made a BIG difference to my day. Going to work didn't end up being a drag, and I feel recharged to tackle my papers.
OH YEA. Today I found a book in Shoppers' staff room (I assumed it was free to take because it was in a shabby state but I didn't) called "When God Winks at You" by Squire Rushnell. After skimming the back cover, inside cover, first chapter, and experiencing the things I did today, I can't lie that God did wink at me today. First line in the book? "You didn't pick this book up by accident, some point in your life God had intended you see this" (something along the lines of this). I continued reading the first chapter and it talks about how nothing is a coincidence, everything was intended to happen by a higher being. One example was you had a thought about someone you haven't seen in a long while and the next thing you know, you see that person! I'm sure this has happened to people before or just everyday moments that make you in awe.
Did God wink at you today?
;)
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
burnt out
I don't know why but I feel so tired today. I posted the other day about sleeping late due to caffeine and all but yesterday I slipped into my covers at 10:16pm and fell asleep shortly after. It was a good nights' rest and I felt good about going to bed earlier.
But today, after going for an early run before class, to going to my two classes, heading home, eating and getting some work done, I feel I have not accomplish much. Tuesdays and Thursday I end at 3:30pm and I try to rush home to beat rush hour.. but I feel like... for lack of a better word, crap.
There's so much work to do.
So it has hit me that I have four papers due in the month of November. One next week which I found out about it today (UGH.), two the week after before Fall break (thank God) and one after the break. And the cherry-not-the-topper-I want for this week? I still have one more midterm in two days.
Man, how come I didn't realize this when I spoke up and volunteered to lead bible study in two Sundays' time? I know God won't shoot anything at you that is BEYOND your capabilities but I really need to pick up the pace and get things done, yet today is not the day.
I can't wait until this term is over and the Christmas Joy punctuates me.
But today, after going for an early run before class, to going to my two classes, heading home, eating and getting some work done, I feel I have not accomplish much. Tuesdays and Thursday I end at 3:30pm and I try to rush home to beat rush hour.. but I feel like... for lack of a better word, crap.
There's so much work to do.
So it has hit me that I have four papers due in the month of November. One next week which I found out about it today (UGH.), two the week after before Fall break (thank God) and one after the break. And the cherry-not-the-topper-I want for this week? I still have one more midterm in two days.
Man, how come I didn't realize this when I spoke up and volunteered to lead bible study in two Sundays' time? I know God won't shoot anything at you that is BEYOND your capabilities but I really need to pick up the pace and get things done, yet today is not the day.
I can't wait until this term is over and the Christmas Joy punctuates me.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
a new ponder
So I don't know why I tend to do this to myself when I love my sleep but I did it anyways. Last night I had a chip ahoy flavoured cappuccino from 7-11 (used my 7-11 buck) and decided to look through my summer snapshots and memories on my camera before I tucked myself in, which meant tired eyes and a lot of rolling in bed due to the caffeine. I don't even know what time I went to bed, last time I looked at the clock it was midnight... but i couldn't sleep for a long while.
I awoke to twitchy eyes but as I went to the washroom I looked out the window and saw... not to my surprise but SNOW on my neighbor's roof! I go back to my room, look out the window and saw snow on my lawn (my room faces the backyard), and all the other houses' lawns! Old Man Winter is definitely upon us (what a disappointment, see below) although the snow did go away by the time I left church.
Speaking of which the sermon made me think a lot today. I realize a lot of times I get annoyed by people who don't show up at church consistently because of personal reasons aka excuses. Today I realized that maybe instead of always picking on those negatives when they don't show up or serve, I should be praying more and help them in realizing what they should be doing instead. Its not as easy as it sounds, but maybe this new approach will turn things around for that person? A friend also reminded me today that "its all up to God". Just the answer I needed, sometimes the answer is God. Let God do his work and step away. Maybe when I step out of the picture, God can finally do what he wanted to do. Maybe I have been trying to help his plans, and in turn it backfired.
Maybe.
I awoke to twitchy eyes but as I went to the washroom I looked out the window and saw... not to my surprise but SNOW on my neighbor's roof! I go back to my room, look out the window and saw snow on my lawn (my room faces the backyard), and all the other houses' lawns! Old Man Winter is definitely upon us (what a disappointment, see below) although the snow did go away by the time I left church.
Speaking of which the sermon made me think a lot today. I realize a lot of times I get annoyed by people who don't show up at church consistently because of personal reasons aka excuses. Today I realized that maybe instead of always picking on those negatives when they don't show up or serve, I should be praying more and help them in realizing what they should be doing instead. Its not as easy as it sounds, but maybe this new approach will turn things around for that person? A friend also reminded me today that "its all up to God". Just the answer I needed, sometimes the answer is God. Let God do his work and step away. Maybe when I step out of the picture, God can finally do what he wanted to do. Maybe I have been trying to help his plans, and in turn it backfired.
Maybe.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Blessed.
Well its never to late to tell people you feel blessed despite the fact that Thanksgiving just passed, but being blessed might not be quite the same as being thankful.
I read three newspapers today: 24 hours, Metro Edmonton and U of A's Gateway. Its become a daily routine when I get my hands on a newspaper and it makes me feel "in" with the world and don't have a "ah-ha" moment when I find out a news item that was way too long ago for my memory or just the fact that I didn't keep up with the world around me. But usually I just read the Metro.
So today I read 24Hrs and the news item that stuck out to me was about U of A's Frat and their hazing video aka their admission To Dos. I heard about it earlier this morning on the radio but didn't catch the University's name. Basically they force freshmans(or other potential males) who have no clue what they are getting themselves into except for the fact that joining a Fraternity is all fun and games (drinking parties included), to do a series of things over a weekend that is not plain Jane. A weekend of stuffing themselves so full that they puke and as a result having to eat their vomit while being high from the amount of alcohol they are "encouraged" to drink. Not only this but having to run on one half hour and five 15 minute intervals of sleep in 72HOURS all the while being forced to do extraneous workouts while being mentally tormented by "Frat brothers" whom they want to become. Once the Pledges started this weekend long mayhem, you HAVE TO finish the course of the weekend and expect this: everyone is told they didn't make it into the club (which is a lie they tell everyone at first to mess with their minds after all they had done to TRY to be accepted). Reading this and knowing that these male victims were not allowed to tell anyone of what happened because of some "Bro-code" makes me sick to the stomach. The only reason that I'm not about to puke myself is for the fact of those alumni Frats that finally spoke up AFTER this video was released to U of A's Gateway.
So what does this have to do with me feeling blessed? Blessed that I'm a girl and I didn't choose to join a Sorority? No, both Frats and Sororities in the past have had these hazing allegations and this is not why I feel blessed. As I read other news items in the newspapers, there are students rioting in the streets of Athens for their educational rights, and yet these boys have nothing better to do than repeat history done to them. Young protesters in Paris standing up for elderly rights, natural disasters, "intended bomb that killed nine", "life sentence for a military commander that sexually assaulted and murdered two innocent females as well as more than a handful of disturbing acts" and so on.
I feel blessed to be alive. I'm glad that what I read everyday in the newspaper doesn't have to do with me(but it does affect me) or is about me. There is so much going on everyday and I really like how they named themselves "24HR Newspapers". There is only so much you can do in a day and yet SO much CAN happen in 24hours. So much crime, so much disasters, or so many that take their life for granted and intentionally do such unfair and immoral acts to others when they could do so much more for the world.
I just have to Thank the Lord for giving me His blessings in the past 24hours and more.
So much more then 24 hours.
I read three newspapers today: 24 hours, Metro Edmonton and U of A's Gateway. Its become a daily routine when I get my hands on a newspaper and it makes me feel "in" with the world and don't have a "ah-ha" moment when I find out a news item that was way too long ago for my memory or just the fact that I didn't keep up with the world around me. But usually I just read the Metro.
So today I read 24Hrs and the news item that stuck out to me was about U of A's Frat and their hazing video aka their admission To Dos. I heard about it earlier this morning on the radio but didn't catch the University's name. Basically they force freshmans(or other potential males) who have no clue what they are getting themselves into except for the fact that joining a Fraternity is all fun and games (drinking parties included), to do a series of things over a weekend that is not plain Jane. A weekend of stuffing themselves so full that they puke and as a result having to eat their vomit while being high from the amount of alcohol they are "encouraged" to drink. Not only this but having to run on one half hour and five 15 minute intervals of sleep in 72HOURS all the while being forced to do extraneous workouts while being mentally tormented by "Frat brothers" whom they want to become. Once the Pledges started this weekend long mayhem, you HAVE TO finish the course of the weekend and expect this: everyone is told they didn't make it into the club (which is a lie they tell everyone at first to mess with their minds after all they had done to TRY to be accepted). Reading this and knowing that these male victims were not allowed to tell anyone of what happened because of some "Bro-code" makes me sick to the stomach. The only reason that I'm not about to puke myself is for the fact of those alumni Frats that finally spoke up AFTER this video was released to U of A's Gateway.
So what does this have to do with me feeling blessed? Blessed that I'm a girl and I didn't choose to join a Sorority? No, both Frats and Sororities in the past have had these hazing allegations and this is not why I feel blessed. As I read other news items in the newspapers, there are students rioting in the streets of Athens for their educational rights, and yet these boys have nothing better to do than repeat history done to them. Young protesters in Paris standing up for elderly rights, natural disasters, "intended bomb that killed nine", "life sentence for a military commander that sexually assaulted and murdered two innocent females as well as more than a handful of disturbing acts" and so on.
I feel blessed to be alive. I'm glad that what I read everyday in the newspaper doesn't have to do with me(but it does affect me) or is about me. There is so much going on everyday and I really like how they named themselves "24HR Newspapers". There is only so much you can do in a day and yet SO much CAN happen in 24hours. So much crime, so much disasters, or so many that take their life for granted and intentionally do such unfair and immoral acts to others when they could do so much more for the world.
I just have to Thank the Lord for giving me His blessings in the past 24hours and more.
So much more then 24 hours.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Relinquished
Just finished reading a bunch of blogs and food for thought and I feel more "aired-out" if that makes sense.
Really don't want to start my homework or reviewing. Its been a long day and the weather is rather chilly.
I've been thinking a lot about Christmas holidays in between my two midterms today. I can't wait until this term is over. This time of term is the worse.
Time to devour some Vegetable Soup + Crackers.
Really don't want to start my homework or reviewing. Its been a long day and the weather is rather chilly.
I've been thinking a lot about Christmas holidays in between my two midterms today. I can't wait until this term is over. This time of term is the worse.
Time to devour some Vegetable Soup + Crackers.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
10-10-10
It's been over a month since I've blogged? Really? Its been that long? It didn't feel like it but I know its true. Blogger has been calling my name in these past few weeks just that I keep putting it off because... "school is piling up" and it definitely is, three midterms next week and four papers due early November, I really feel for lack of a better word, death.
But no, its not "death" I believe hard work will pay off and that's why I try to work hard during the week so I can get as much done as I can and enjoy my weekends either it be work(yes, its not all that great but its a different day vs. school) and spending time at church and going to fellowships. With God All things are Possible.
So here's to a special Thanks-Giving weekend, and a renewal to my blogging life. Its really exciting to hear testimonies from brothers and sisters getting baptize either it be Thanksgiving or Easter. I get so happy for them and I remember the day I got baptized all over again. Its so memorable and getting 'Dunk' will always be something I hold close to my heart.
This weekend has been off to a good start, leading up to it I spent a lot of time doing something I really enjoy, wrapping gifts and making presents for two birthday girls and three baptism candidates! I love it, I wish I could make a living out of making things pretty... maybe. Last night was a thoughtful worship night for the high school and junior high fellowships and although some of the younger "teens" didn't take it seriously, I still hope it touched them in some way. This morning was a declaration of faith for the three believers and the speaker brought out a engaging message to the congregation. It reminded me of my FIC (Faith In Christ) and so much more. Then I had lunch with some of my family on High Street at a neat little Italian restaurant call Valeno and headed to WEM and got some shopping done. Beautiful day.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Our God is an Awesome God. Thank Him.
But no, its not "death" I believe hard work will pay off and that's why I try to work hard during the week so I can get as much done as I can and enjoy my weekends either it be work(yes, its not all that great but its a different day vs. school) and spending time at church and going to fellowships. With God All things are Possible.
So here's to a special Thanks-Giving weekend, and a renewal to my blogging life. Its really exciting to hear testimonies from brothers and sisters getting baptize either it be Thanksgiving or Easter. I get so happy for them and I remember the day I got baptized all over again. Its so memorable and getting 'Dunk' will always be something I hold close to my heart.
This weekend has been off to a good start, leading up to it I spent a lot of time doing something I really enjoy, wrapping gifts and making presents for two birthday girls and three baptism candidates! I love it, I wish I could make a living out of making things pretty... maybe. Last night was a thoughtful worship night for the high school and junior high fellowships and although some of the younger "teens" didn't take it seriously, I still hope it touched them in some way. This morning was a declaration of faith for the three believers and the speaker brought out a engaging message to the congregation. It reminded me of my FIC (Faith In Christ) and so much more. Then I had lunch with some of my family on High Street at a neat little Italian restaurant call Valeno and headed to WEM and got some shopping done. Beautiful day.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Our God is an Awesome God. Thank Him.
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