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I can and can't believe it's October already.

I can believe it because even though I'm not in the shoes of a student, never did I thought that my work experience as a special events intern would keep me so preoccupied-physically, mentally, at work and even at home. I have classmates in similar situations that feel the same way and I justify it partly from the pressure we feel to make a good impression, despite the pass/fail requirement to receive credits and progress along towards graduation. Another part, a realization of what is expected in the "real" world, that's why its called work experience right?!

On a positive note, I am learning immensely about my role and even more than I ever did in New York because I am actually responsible over projects and have "authority" to an extent in making my own judgement about how and what it is that is to be done, not just assisting. The realistic aspect makes me question if I am wanting to do this in the long run. It's still too early to make an all encompassing judgement, but I know one major burden I feel is not being able to go to church Sunday mornings due to a good handful of events falling on that day of the week. Initially, I had plans to find an evening night church, but there actually aren't that many in Edmonton north, and one thing I dislike about work life is how drained you are by the end of the day that you just want to sit and stare at a screen.

I had more than succumbed to this couch potato behavior in NYC despite the hypes of the Big Apple. I mean, I was tired from a long day at school when I was a student, but working is a totally different story-at least for me. I'm thankful to be living at home right now and be able to come home to food already made as I can relate to the syndrome of not wanting to cook after a long day at my internship in NYC (thankfully I had awesome roomies!).

This explains the lack of blogging, and me being M-I-A these past few weeks. I'm actually acknowledging the consequences of this obviously as I find that circumstances where I'm usually patient and am able to discipline myself in have fallen short; this past weekend, I felt my attitude was especially nasty about certain things. Needless to say, I definitely know the perks of being in a spiritual community and plugging myself into a family of believers consistently.

So I can't believe its already October because I feel like I haven't done much but work between my practicum and my part time. I did make some 'golden' goals for myself this year that I've started, but other than that, I find myself not being as efficient as I like in my spare time. I don't miss the work load of a student, but I do miss running into people on campus and even lingering to have a quick chat. At work, your main focus is on your tasks, and your network is limited to work relationships which makes it hard to keep up with friends who are still in school.

Well, that was a brief update on what went down in September, hopefully it won't be another month until I blog again.

I hope you're all doing well!