Hungry

I am so hungry.
Famish. Unsatisfied. Craving.


I didn't realize that I could be so hungry. I usually make sure my stomach is satisfied before my hunger even begins to trigger my mind to tell me to eat. For the longest time now, I thought I was full, I thought I was filled to the capacity of my stomach, I thought I had taken in everything I could. Who knew that I would discover a new aspect to hunger? Who knew that everything I had eaten up to now was not as filling as I thought it be? Having eaten so much in my life, who knew that there could be something on the table that was new and more filling than anything I have ever tasted in my life?

If you followed my blog, you know I love analogies. I love depicting my feelings and describing my thoughts by comparing it with something else that I think to be easier to digest. Today, I have come to realize how hungry I am in my spiritual walk.

Since my first Emmaus large group, to attending Sunday Service at New Philly church, I've been feeling something stirring from within. I have been wanting more of that feeling and I have been absolutely fallen in love with in. Its like nothing I have felt before and it is so so satisfying. I never find myself getting enough of it, and I sense myself over flowing with this sensation and even outpouring it onto others. It's indescribable in one sense, and beautifully empowering me to share it with others. This feeling is drawing me closer to God and if faith was hunger, I find myself not getting enough. I'm wanting to eat more and more each time, each day, each week. This starvation is unstoppable and I want to binge into a bottomless bowl of spiritual goodness.

It may be the energy from the Emmaus staff, or the enthusiasm from New Philly's service, but regardless of its origin, its definitely radiating all around me. Before I started my exchange, all the feedback from previous exchange students have told me I will have the 'greatest time of my life.' Since my arrival, many people have told me 'you will love Seoul so much that by the end of your semester, you won't want to leave,' and through Emmaus, its been repeated that 'this term will change your life.' At first, I thought all these things sounded too exaggerated, running on an initial honeymoon stage of energy, which more than often happens when your having fun and enjoying every bit of a 'new' thing. To be honest though, I don't have this perspective no more because I find myself living out these exaggerated words. Maybe it is an exaggeration, but a truthful one.

Faith is a whole new topic coming to Korea. it's not just about being a Christian, its about being a living and breathing son and daughter of Christ with a HUGE focus on evangelism- be it walking down the streets with signs written, 'Jesus Loves You', to early morning praise and worship outdoors on campus, to on the spot prayer meetings . I find myself hungering for church day in and day out and wanting to know God more than all my previous Sunday schools, bible studies and fellowships have ever taught me-my hunger is beyond the knowledge I have. Its an out cry of having a personal relationship with Jesus on a whole new level and people don't think twice about how they pray, how they sing, how they worship and praise our heavenly Father. Its so freeing and wonderful to be surrounded with such an amazing and inspiring vibe.

Seoul is seriously stirring up an appetite in my soul.

Another helping please!