I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN SO LONG. Although I've been sitting for like majority of today and yesterday trying to get a 2000 word essay done for English, and every other day, I'm going to continue writing because I need to update not only you guys but myself on my life.
First off I'm so STRESS! Life is so busy, University is slowly sucking my youth away and I'm always sitting which makes me feel unproductive (although I am working on the laptop) and tired. Where shall I start, uni ain't easy if people haven't realized, and juggling a five-course load is a lot to handle. I get home each day, grab a snack or perhaps a meal and then surprizingly, I automatically plot myself infront of the labtop and start working. Uni really smacks your procrastination away, well for me anyways since I recall the multiple times I would push homework aside until the very last minute back in highschool. Sometimes I find myself not even having time to focus or think about non-school stuff. I really am prioritizing school and school and school. Why am I? I'm such a hypocrite, I even find myself getting feelings of not going to fellowship and my excuse is "I have to get things(homework) done." Fortunately, bible study was canceled last Sunday night. But still, that was a dilemic mentality.. if that's even a word.
I'm still trying to obtain that balance, but for now its still leaning towards-you guess it! School.=( I feel so drained and its so difficult to meet up with friends and have a nice chat with them, for now I keep hoping for April 23 when I will have accomplished and hopefully aced my term with flying colours. BEING A STUDENT IS SO DIFFICULT. I feel crazy buying into this education scheme.... why did I again? Oh yes, I remember now, that degree everyone wants to obtain in order to get a pretty sweet paying job. Despite my sarcasm, I know education has its benefit, but wow am I in need of a break with a massage on top. TIME GO BY FASTER please? All in all I'm pretty happy about the fact that I finally finished one of my three essays all due in the last week of March. That's another thing I hate, uni and their due dates falling so close with each other. Hopefully that saying is correct: "Work hard; Play hard!"
Recently I have had many recalls about the past as a wee girl. I remember things I would say or do and compare to now, I realize how different I am. I can't believe I ever thought of doing a full IB course load and consider getting an IB diploma when I was in gr.6 or so... I think I was on durgs xP. So happens that I went to the Shrine Circus with my family last night, and going as an 18 yr old is totally abstract from an 7 or even 12 yr old's mind. I realize how small the rings, animals and stage looked and I even asked my mom, did things get smaller or is it just me? Obviously she responded that I'm older now, of course things don't seem as "exciting" to me as it would to little kids. Take my elementary cousins for example, who were so over the top to get their face painted and buy helium balloons. I miss those times. No worries, no troubles, just Fun. Now at my age, people just like sucking the helium out of the balloons to have a high squeaky voice, like those three chipmuncks that made it to the big screen.
Well to wrap things up, I feel better putting my thoughts into words and sharing it. I'm sorry if my moodiness crossed your mind as you read this. Nonetheless, I wish you a great week! Talk to people, embrace your thoughts, and let it flow out. It helps. Promise.
p.s. oh job where art thou?!
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