Throwdown the Countdown.

10 days until I leave, I'm counting down alright, such excitement but yet still unbeliveable. I should start packing this coming weekend! I'm really hyped and I don't feel stress at all now, I think my prayer requests are working, their dismantling my accumulated stress from before!

I've also finished two diplomas(essays) and I felt really good, either I feel good because I did think I did good or maybe it was just the joy of finishing two written diplomas, too bad there's still 6 more parts to go : 2 bio; 2 chem; 1 english ; & 1 social.

But back to the topic of leaving, I think I'm going to miss my school and church friends so much. Two nights ago I was having a late night call ( like 10pm +) with one of my sic buddies, we ended up crying over the phone togther and I felt our friendship just gets deeper with each tear-either tear of joy or tear of saddness together. But I really wish I could stay in Edmonton longer to help her out with her problems and difficulties. I yearn to see her grow even more and deepen her relationship with Christ since its been a rollercoaster ride for her. I hope and pray that the promise I made her that night will be come surreal so that she may be at ease. I pray that the promise she made me will become reality as well.
GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH & WISDOM!

You know the feeling when you make a promise and you really really want to do it in that moment, but after the emotions and the mood you were in fades, you feel like you can't do it no more or you doubt yourself. This is what I'm feeling, I feel so feeble and not up to this role I said yes to- but I know its all anxiety and doubts, and God will pull me through. AMEN.

Unbelievable.

School just ended like 4 hours ago. I can't believe it, I feel like a two face or else a hypocrite. Before I would dread going to school and having to bus half hour + each day to and from Mac, so that makes it a little over an hour each day (especially leaving home from spare and having to take the 150 and crossing that killer traffic circle!!) And now it was such a sad day, everyone was taking pictures, sharing food with teachers and students, farewells everywhere and grad pranks too. I felt like I wanted to stay longer and it really is the people that make highschool worth it. I felt it wasn't until these last few months that I actually gotten to know some people and wish I had became friends with them earlier!. I wish I had more timeto get to know them inside out but I know if I put the effort in, these newly made and current friends of mine will be maintained throughout uni and maybe a lifetime.

Its hardwork and the homework makes it dull and boring but it builds you for the long run. Diplomas are coming up and thanks to a little someone and their postivitity I feel a little at ease- doing a little destressing lately haha. Yes, I haven't studied much and I've actually been enjoying time with myself doing things I want to do but I'm sure I'll get around to it and try to do my very best!

Today is June 12, that means two more weeks until my internship, I feel like not wanting to leave but at the same time I wish I could just skim over those diplomas and fly fly fly! My final grade school year is coming to an end, all I can say is unbelievable- thirteen years has flown by and I still remember when I was in elementary thinking how it would take me FOREVER to finish highschool and how BIG the teens were and how AMAZING it be just to get there.


There is a time for everything- a time to cry and a time to smile; a time to celebrate and a time to remorse; a time to give and a time to receive.

Blown threw the top.

Man I feel so stresss, like I've hit the maximum threshold level of stress. In calm I learnt stress can be good things not neccesarily many bad negative things put together causing you to feel tired or tense. But my stress is literally many things combined. School diplomas. Church Activities. Upcoming Events. Doctor Appointments. To Do lists. Preparation before I leave Edmonton. etc.

I really need to vent, it seems like this week so many things have been getting tangled up in my life either scheduling or things I've been looking forward to just ends up getting backfired on me. Don't get me wrong, I don't blame anyone or regret although I find myself wishing I started studying earlier or choosing a semsester school so I wouldn't have to deal with so many diplomas. But God has his plans and he sees the bigger picture while were complaining about the then and now. I really feel unready for diplomas I feel like its going to be the end of the world if I do bad-but its not. I really hope I can let go of some things but at times its so hard. So hard.

16 more days until I leave and every week I have a mini to do list either it be paying my deposit fee for U of A or read a novel for English Dip.- I want to get out of this mode. But I know I got to stay motivated, because having only 16 days left is why I got to work hard so by the end of it I can leave school and the city knowing I've done the best and just got to let God do the rest.


God please keep steering me, I've only started moving.

Tune into June.

Time is zooming by. voom voom voooom. My May Day month has flown by and my exciting events each weekend are slowing down but not really because Urban Promise is right around the corner! Yes I know I have like a two day Calculus final starting Monday and another four diplomas coming up which is worth 50% of my mark which I think is ridiculous! What if you did really good the whole year and you just happen to bomb these 'diplomas' oh snap- your mark would go down by like half! Well I guess all we can do is try our best, just like this phrase says "God can't steer a ship that ain't moving," so lets all get off our lazy butts (literally and figuratively) and MOVE.

I'm really excited about my summer but my parents have started getting naggy about swine flu and quarantine. To be honest, I don't feel it to be that bad, well I obviously didn't get the flu but I think SARS was like ten times worse 6 years ago, but a pandemic is a pandemic and the WHO are head over heels over this issue. Maybe I should wear a face mask on the plane-I wonder how people would comment on that. But sometimes I still don't believe I'll be flying on my own, spending more then 6 weeks in Vancouver with no strings attach-no family at all, no mom or dad on my back; I'm free like a bird with weighless wings.

Speaking of which tonight's fellowship was awesome! Sumo wrestling, dodgeball, sumo surfing, a message to the point about Head Heart & Hands; to learn, be, and SHOW Christ likeness to others- a trait we can all brush up on day to day. God is great just like how that song goes....


"My God is so Great so Strong and so Mighty there's nothing my God cannot do-FOR YOU!"

UP UP AND AWAY!

I'M SO HYPED. like drugged at the moment! UP! So my friend mentioned if I want to go watch UP and I was like Urban Promise??!?! But UP is actually a new pixar animated 3D film and I want to go watch it now, first because of the pun with UP as in Urban Promise.. well acroynm and second its cool!

So today I got an email from Urban Promise, I'll be situated at Camp Peace and I'll be baking with the kids and other responsibilities of course! I really really anticpate flying over borders and having a memorable experience.

Happy birthday NEAC! 25 years old! 25 memorable & meaningful years!

One Month.

I have graduated, yes graduated with a "diploma" that says my grad theme and grad theme drawing it. Fraud! But none the less it was a great weekend and I experienced God more in depth then ever. He forced me to call on his name for help, and cry to him during a time I was suppose to be overjoyed and making it the most memorable I could. Well it was memorable alright I will never forget what happened this weekend, that little accident on the way to grad and the aftermath of it and the bigger picture I saw revealed to me. God's plan is truly beyond human circumstances, beyond the present, beyond what we can acknowledge, and we only get it when it unfolds according to God's purpose. All I can say is, Thank you God. There were parts of Grad I would redo if I could, like bringing my camera to commensment or keeping my gown on longer so I could've taken a full gown pic with my parents but it has all ended now, and I learnt to not live in the past, but to "Live each day as I were to die tommorw and Learn as if I was to live Forever", significantly my grad quote came into play.

Today is May 26, exactly one month until Urban Promise. One month left until all my diplomas will have been finished and dealth with! I can't wait. Foreshadowing June 26 is overwhelming me!! I really need to prepare myself spiritually and read those emailed manuals. I'm so grateful from learning to draw close to God, it is in your lowest of lows that God draws you near because when your happy go lucky everything is the best it can be and one doesn't feel obliged to ask God for help, or yearn to be closer with him on a personal level. I pray that we all learn to achieve a heart to heart relationship with God, because its a never ending task and God will get out of his way to make this known to you.

GRAD 2009

Commensment in like 3 hours! All that getting ready, studying and preparing and wow I can't believe it!! I wasn't that hype last week or this past long weekend, but WOW. I am now!
I'm like shaking already and I'm only at home sitting infront of this computer, just imagine me AT Shaw in HEELS with the gown & tassel hat and A bazillion people watching!

I've just been thanking God so much today and yesterday and I kept thinking back to gr.6 grad or gr.9 grad.. and now HIGHSCHOOL grad!!! voom voom voooooom diplomas aren't even on my mind cuz its party time! haha not really, our Grad coordinator/teacher was like 'remember your parents are watching, don't be a fool and drink before commensment, oh what stupid acts some people would do but I'm excited and I know I'll remember today and everything about tonight for a long long time!

Thanks God and Congrats to all O9 Graduates=D