One reason I came back to Korea was to find answers. I had feelings that God would speak to me back in a place where I had unforgettable memories that kept me questioning for more these past few months. I had my hesitations, and I had my expectations, but it wasn't made clear to me until a sermon yesterday that it doesn't matter where I am or where I go, because it won't solve my problems now or my questions for the future. Instead, what matters most is what's in my soul, what my intentions are, and how my plans are Heaven oriented instead of (Earthly) destination oriented.
I think I've been prioritizing where I am to "settle" more than what I am to do when I am in wherever God places. Since officially completing all the requirements of my studies, I've been asked what my plans are, what's next, and it makes sense as that tends to be the natural course of our life. I mean, we didn't ust go to school for at least seventeen plus years just to be educated. Ultimately, it's to find a relatively decent job, be financially stable, and be able to maintain one's life style and eventually a family if this ideal plays out.
Though, my responses and thoughts have been full of uncertainty. What's certain is that I'm a curious and greedy one. Curiosity that keeps me going and discontent with the fact of "settling," and greedy in the sense that I want to be everywhere at any point of time and hoping that I can do much with little. I honestly have no clue where to start, but I also know planting seeds here and there won't bear any fruit. Instead, I really need to concentrate and focus my time and resources into one area, allow it to come to fruition, AND THEN branch out. I don't regret where I've gone or what I've done as I wouldn't be where or who I am if it wasn't for the past, but I feel my mind is being transformed and molded closer to who and what God wants me to be doing.
I'm travelling to find answers and I know God is speaking because He already has. I no longer see or feel the pressure to eventually return "home" and have everything put together. Neither do I see returning back to Korea a solution to my uncertainty, but I do know that this trip was planned for a purpose beyond me and where I am to go, what I am to see, and who I am to meet has all been orchestrated by our God Almighty.
If you want to listen to the sermon I mentioned earlier, it is here.
I think I've been prioritizing where I am to "settle" more than what I am to do when I am in wherever God places. Since officially completing all the requirements of my studies, I've been asked what my plans are, what's next, and it makes sense as that tends to be the natural course of our life. I mean, we didn't ust go to school for at least seventeen plus years just to be educated. Ultimately, it's to find a relatively decent job, be financially stable, and be able to maintain one's life style and eventually a family if this ideal plays out.
Though, my responses and thoughts have been full of uncertainty. What's certain is that I'm a curious and greedy one. Curiosity that keeps me going and discontent with the fact of "settling," and greedy in the sense that I want to be everywhere at any point of time and hoping that I can do much with little. I honestly have no clue where to start, but I also know planting seeds here and there won't bear any fruit. Instead, I really need to concentrate and focus my time and resources into one area, allow it to come to fruition, AND THEN branch out. I don't regret where I've gone or what I've done as I wouldn't be where or who I am if it wasn't for the past, but I feel my mind is being transformed and molded closer to who and what God wants me to be doing.
I'm travelling to find answers and I know God is speaking because He already has. I no longer see or feel the pressure to eventually return "home" and have everything put together. Neither do I see returning back to Korea a solution to my uncertainty, but I do know that this trip was planned for a purpose beyond me and where I am to go, what I am to see, and who I am to meet has all been orchestrated by our God Almighty.
If you want to listen to the sermon I mentioned earlier, it is here.
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