Tables have Turned

I am enthusiastic about planning. If you didn't have any clue of that, well you definitely do now. Planning events,  jotting ideas, brainstorming, attending meetings (yes, you read this one right!), and especially thinking ahead and getting things accomplished before it should or needs to be done. I've enjoyed being a planner and my Myer Briggs characteristic traits have intellectually confirmed that, but it does take its toll on me.

The down side is, planning is always done in the present towards something happening in the future, and that doesn't work very well when you don't know what is actually in store in the future. You can only predict and confirm so much while everything else is up in the air until it actually occurs, and there's no guaranteed that what you plan will go through. Thus, planning sucks when it constantly is being change, manipulated, and when the tables seem to keep turning on you-Thanks God...just great, you just love to do this to me... just when I thought everything would be concrete. 

Today I think I've reached the tipping point of how much my plans can change on me-especially on short notice. I really felt my heart dropped on this one and how it effects my plans these next few months. I have extended travel plans this Spring and there were a few purposes for this trip, but it seems like my original intent for going on this trip is constantly being reworked and thought out. Just when I thought that everything was going to work out smoothly, I just had to receive some breaking news.

It's honestly bittersweet, I'm complaining about my travel plans changing on me, call it a first world problem? I really don't know, but I'm holding out for a miracle. Circumstances make it seem impossible in the natural, but that only makes me feel that God is going to show me the possible. I would be devastated if what I had planned doesn't work out or my purpose for going didn't include me in the picture.

Here's to holding out on faith and trusting God to show me His divine and devious plans...

Not going to lie, it sucks not knowing!