Cheers 2013!

It's already the last day of the year.

Though I don't jump on the new year partying bandwagon or love the fireworks enough to freeze my toes off this time around, I do usually reflect on how the year did go at some point. Today, I especially took the time out to head to Starbucks to finish a gift card I received earlier and to write out my reflections and thanksgiving praises to God.

I realize there wasn't anything that stood out in particular, actually I take that back, at least not in the moment that I was reflecting, but now that I'm blogging, I realized that most people would consider finishing their degree and as of now, school!, organizing a flashmob, and heading to the Big Apple for an internship -especially this last one, a highlight. All these things were 'one-off'' moments, but I found a huge aspect to this year was growth-spiritually, physically, socially, distantly (yes, that is actually a word), and professionally as I started the transition between school and work.

There were times that literally teared me apart emotionally, and times that drew me closer to God more than ever as I made myself surrender my vulnerabilities into His supreme and subtly unknown goodness. I feel I've gained confidence in my social skills, went beyond "comfort zone" walls, and at times changed like a chameleon in order to adapt to my surroundings and those I interacted with. I found myself head deep in my passions, lost myself to doubt, been frustrated with my struggles, praised my talents, counted my blessings, desired more despite content in my circumstances, and realized that I never really do have it together or can hold everything together... because I am not the one to do that, God is and does and forever will.

My social environments has evolved quite a bit, friends moving for work, friends drifting apart, friends getting engaged, getting married, rekindling old friendships, bonding deeper with relatively new friends, family broken, family reconciling, deaths, life, old, new, feelings of loneliness, feelings of joy, living through past memories, dreaming of future moments, it's been quite the year.

With a new year coming, and knowing myself way too well, I already have some plans up in the new air. I don't think everything will go as plan, and if it works to my favour (as in God's will), it probably won't. Rereading my resolutions last year reminded me of how ambitious and uncommitted I can be after a while, so this year, I've even written a disclaimer to the goals I hope to achieve alongside the Golden ones I have since turning twenty-two. I'm still on this journey of discovering much, and much will stay unknown, though I do know that it's never ending so I will have to settle for what much will make of it.

Here's to 2014 with Love.