At the start of this program, I had said I felt like I was
walking on egg shells, sensitive to what I did and said and reserve about who I
decided to befriend. Luckily, things changed after the first week and God
opened up my heart to His heart and showed me His great love for Montreal, the
people, and the Explore students.
There were many times I struggled with myself and with the
secularity of situations I was placed in. I realize how uncomfortable I can be
around people who valued things on the opposite end of the spectrum then I did
and how hard it was to stand up for my beliefs. At times like these, I couldn’t
help but feel tested or question why people do what they do. It made me realize
the importance of having a strong Christian community around me to help me stay
grounded and I never felt such a powerful urge to surround myself around
believers until that first Saturday. However, God was shifting my heart
throughout this and instead of wanting to be away from certain people, I felt
drawn to get to know them and be around them. I became curious about their
lives and wanted to get to know them. It’s so much easier to be around people
who believes in what I believe in, but then, I would never to be as relatable
to others who live so differently from me, if I agree with their lifestyles or
not.
Near the end of this program, I kept thinking if I could’ve
done things differently or maybe if I could’ve been bolder about my faith. I
know the adjustment gradually got easier with spiritual set ups and
connections, but I can’t help but think what if I said this in that situation,
or did this during that time? I guess I can’t keep posing “what ifs” as life is
meant to be lived forwards, but what if what ifs right?
This time around though, leaving wasn’t hard. When I realize
there was 10 days left, I just wanted to do everything left on my bucket list.
I didn’t feed into any feelings of sorrow as I have faith that I will see the
friends I bonded with as we’re all within a few provinces or less. Montreal is a very unique Canadian city, but
I’m not attached to it. It’s been a fun-filling five weeks and I’m very blessed
for being able to have many adFRENCHtures here. I would definitely visit
Montreal again and maybe even work temporarily if God calls me back, but for
now, this French chapter of my life is closed.
But, another one is
just opening…
Where I’m headed next
really came unexpectedly. I had kept this place at the back of my mind since
two years ago, and when I knew I would be going East this summer, I just had to
go for it. How the trip turned out and those I will be seeing very soon is such
a gift from God. Everything planned out flawlessly, and as if I didn’t have the
greatest gift of all already this year being in Korea, God surprizes me with a
follow up.
ChoooCHOOOOO
choooCHOOOOO CHUGGACHUGGA chooooCHOOOO
Once this train stops… something big awaits!
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