More than often, I like things to be easy. Usually situations I have been in before or something I know I am capable of doing. The reason being? I guess it just makes life more simplify and lighter to handle. Everytime I am given an assignment in class, and upon skimming it,I feel the pressure is on; time is ticking. I tend to doubt my abilities and and I don't know if I am able to accomplish what is planned out for me to do. I wonder if profs ever question that for their students or ponder on the stress we have on top of what they are asking of us.
I guess I can say the same for most people. Who doesn't like things to be easy to do, easy to find, easy to ace? But life doesn't work this way, and ironically I am glad that life can be a pain or the mere fact that earning somthing is more of a challenge than the reverse. Despite the comfort and ease of having things come easy, having an simple path laid out for you will just maintain the status quo. Hardly anything ever disrupts your journey or detours you from reaching your destination. Status quo is nice, but I've come to realize that you really that you don't get anywhere. You don't grow or struggle and so you are the same person as you were before you started that straight forwardness. What's the point then, right?
Recently, I feel a yearning to want to be challenge. As the term is near its end, its really pleasurable to know that there are no more assignments left for me to work on. At the same time, after studying for my last two finals, there isn't much for me to do or learn from. School has always kept me busy and though it doesn't really help me to grow spiritually or socially as a person, it does impact those areas. When I'm having break downs over an assignment or needing to replenish I am drawn to find God or pray hard for the tough times to be over. Not to my surprise, the cycle will start over again sooner or later. "You live, You learn"
As the beautiful weather is here to stay and summer is on its way, I really want to challenge myself and do something meaningful. I don't have any major plans as of yet, but perhaps I can come up with a path that will trip me, make me fall, get up on my feet, and keep going. First step: get off my butt. These past few months has consisted of long hours of sitting and staring at a screen. Its time to freshen up and do the impossible with my possible God.
Challenge Accepted
i think one thing that students forget is that generally, profs have gone through what we're going through right now. so in that sense they know what it takes and they only want their students to be the best. of course, it's not true for every prof, but in a general case.
ReplyDeletechallenges are good! im quite sure you'd be glad you went through with it in the end (=