I put you infront of me so everybody can see my Love, this is my Love.

God is Good. So many things have come cleared to me in this past weekend. Last night was unbelievable and it wasn't just a 'christian high' that some people would call it; it was meaning; it was life; it was a passion and fervor for the Glory of God; it was a Revival. I could attend another Jaeson Ma event all over again. From arriving at like 4 pm (event started at 5pm) to not checking my clock until people started to leave, I checked my phone and... I couldn't believe it... it was PAST 10PM! I just sat though five hours?! Worship, JMA's documentary, his performance, and most importantly his sermon that dug deep and spoke to the core of us. It was engaging the whole time, his passion for Christ and his Ministry is all GOD. ALL OF IT. I hope everyone could have a chance to experience what I experienced last night with 600+ students or even watch the documentary and realize how fortunate we are, but yet we don't have the drive to do even 10% of what people do in Asia. Crazy. Sick. Really SIC.

It really hit me hard when I learned that two pastors debated over an hour who would DIE (when 23 Korean missionaries were kidnapped by the Taliban in Afganistan) to save the rest of the group. It was overwhelming and so real hearing all of this. You may have questioned it before-could you die for your faith? what you believe in? That's a tough one, yet people LONG to die for God's ministry. An eye-opener, jaw-dropping one right there. Personally, I don't know, sometimes I feel I don't even have 10% of the faith some people in Asia have. Its so true that you don't give your all to God unless your in a state of devastation and have no one else, nothing else but faith, and yet 'faith is to believe what you do not see and the rewards of this is to see what you believe' -Augustine. I'm speechless, I even feel ashamed of myself and fearing my peer's judging me rather then fearing God. What is wrong with me? Why do I think this way?

Ironically, in Sunday School yesterday morning, we were sharing about how to apply our knowledge of what we have learned from the book of John so far. I was in a small group with two other girls and I found myself sharing how hard it is to share the gospel with my friends or even touch on the topic of church. One girl told me its so hard because its just natural for people to 'fit in,' to 'belong.' Why start controversy when the status quo can be maintained right? But in order to have faith, you have to FEAR God, you have to take that next, step up and do something that 'scares' you- not OMG haunted house scary, but seriously something that is ultimately fearing and amazing at the same time. Its unexplainable in some ways, but in the end it was a great Sunday, I compromised studying but Jaeson reminded me that we shouldn't be 'worshiping school' and sometimes I feel I may be doing just that unexpectedly, but that doesn't mean I stop studying well, obviously.

Anyhow check JMA's Ministry out, God is working with him non-stop. I know God can do great things in each of us if we give us everything. Literally everything. Can We?

Amen