Squat; SMquat!

You guessed it! I squatted yesterday for the very first time since a long long time ago.. such as when I was eight, and held in my pee until I pee-d my pants! But in a way I was forced to squat because we were at a restuarant and it was a nice one and I expected it to have at least ONE sit-a-ble toilet, but it didn't and after the waiting so long to get to the washroom, it felt like a waste if I didn't go, so I did and it...
wasn't so bad, I just had to make sure I 'aimed' right... okay I can't believe I said that, I just sounded like an immature little boy. Afterwards though, I found out I faced the squatter the wrong way, but at least I didn't stain my pants! =)

I re-read my last blog and I had said its only been SIX days, and you know what, because I got a complained for not communicating about my trip enough, I realize there's only SIX days LEFT now that I am blogging =(. I'm sad now, and tired; late nights and early mornings are worse then school days but it sandwiches in the fun of shopping, eating, walking, touring, etc. so I guess its balanced you could say.

Well this is the second longest period of time I've been away from home on my own: last year with Urban Promise/ HK and this summer now. I realize everytime I am away from home, I grown more as a person in many ways, especially intellectually and socially. Its cheesy, but I feel grown up, I don't know how to explain it all in one blog but just the way I think is a 180 twist (sort of). Maybe I've been having conversations with older girls and I've become more matured, or the fact of just being away from home that allows me to think and wander in my mind. I don't mean change as in interests... for an example, I still love Love LOVE shopping, but relationship wise I figured out what I really want, and personally, I acknowledge and cherish certain events more then I did a few years before.

Yes that is it! When your on a trip you have nothing to worry about: no deadlines, no work shifts, no homework, no stress, its VACATION! Well there is some work to it but its minor, and fun work, not much pain, more gain though. I feel free, which is ironic because this tour does have some strict rules and boundaries but free from everyday school or work life. I don't want to countdown, because I hate leaving stuff like these, I recall sobbing like a baby on the last day of camp at Urban Promise, and I anticipate at least some tears on the last day.

I really didn't like hearing our leaders ask us if we needed airport transportation on the day we leave today, just too soon! As well, a few of us has questioned, will we ever see each other again? It is a small small world after all... right?

WOAH. its like almost 1:30am, but I realize the importance of fellowship, I'm so happy when I find out so and so is a Christian, I approached a girl and asked because I saw her close her eyes and say a quick prayer at lunch time: she's in my group and eats at the same table with me every meal time but for some reason I never caught her pray, maybe its always a quick prayer and stuff, but I was glad I finally saw her pray and personally, I don't witness enough, and I tend to say a short "Thank you for my food" kind of thing in my Mind, so she wouldn't have ever known I was a Christian either if neither of us showed it, so that just made me think alot, but that's a whole other tale to tell. But back to fellowship, sometimes I just find my self fall short of holding up a Christ-like image when I'm around non-christians, I feel certain morals or values are not as strong as they should be, so I got to remind myself since I don't have many brothers or sisters here to remind me.

Alright, good night.
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