This Mission Conference weekend at church has helped me. It has help me to realize I lack in love; lacking love for others, love for self, love in action. I felt so happy seeing a friend that finally saw one of my drimes today-live. Since the first drime in May 2008 until now, a total of 5 drimes, she never happened to be there until today, I was so over joyed! I know the focus isn't about she seeing me on stage or not (of course its not), but that I hope she got the message in relation to our almighty God and the bigger picture of Christianity.
It makes me so mad how some people come to church, sit on Sundays, maybe half attentive, possibly fall asleep, then leave when service finishes. It hurts to know that I know people who don't love this great God of ours as much as I do. It sucks to know they don't have a heart to serve and that's why they say "I don't get anything out of church." I know there's a timing for everything, GOD'S timing, but I hate it, I hate how they do nothing, I don't like how I sense they don't want to be at church at all but at the same time I'm so happy to be able to see them at church. I really want to ask their motive for coming but it hurts me so bad to know that I already know the anwser to this rhetorical question of mine.
I admit I am not trying as hard as I should be in delivering this Christian love. I've given up, I've been selfish and neglected to give my TIME to so and so I know. But I pray and hope that God will give me the courage and strength to reestablish this faith in their hearts, to drill the basis of Christianity in their hearts-again, and maybe, just maybe something will spark and ignite a passion in them all over again. Maybe it takes more then a second try or 'third times a charm', sometimes its a constant push someone needs, and I think its time to put action into my words.
-I pray
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
MADNESS.
Furious. Ridiculous. Inconsiderate. Selfish.Flaming MADNESS.
Early today I was ENRAGED. I was so mad inside I could've literally slap someone but how did I ever manage this madness so well inside and not let the victim get a glimpse of it? I was so inrage but I know it was also a ridiculous test of patience. I was so angry and I didn't let it all out until I was at home spazzing to myself.
A lot of time was wasted today and I learnt that I have to say NO to some things, even if you feel bad.
There's my lesson learnt.
Say NO.
alskdfjaklsdfjlksadjfNO.
Early today I was ENRAGED. I was so mad inside I could've literally slap someone but how did I ever manage this madness so well inside and not let the victim get a glimpse of it? I was so inrage but I know it was also a ridiculous test of patience. I was so angry and I didn't let it all out until I was at home spazzing to myself.
A lot of time was wasted today and I learnt that I have to say NO to some things, even if you feel bad.
There's my lesson learnt.
Say NO.
alskdfjaklsdfjlksadjfNO.
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